I dont want to forget her. I do not want to accept that she is gone. I still want to know her for who she really is. I want to be her support. Yes I still Love her. How do people do this? All I can do now is grip tightly onto my Creator. Trust Him. Learn from Him. Not to much longer now and He will come back in the clouds to go to our Heavenly home. Where we will never have to worry about this again.

I knew she was important to me. She helped me to get to this point in my life where i want to grow in every possible way. Where i want to become a better person… not that i didnt before but now with renewed and stronger burning for it. But now alas our ways are parting our journeys are being led in different directions but not to far from each-other. I never new this would happen, I never hoped for things to end up this way. All I wanted was that opportunity to show another person Love and to experience Love in a new way. Love to me is God, so what I wanted to experience more of God and to understand Him more, but perhaps there is something that I need to figure out about myself because of God before I can move on to a deeper relationship with Him. Perhaps one day when we both have healed and when we have become that much closer to whom it is we want to be our paths will cross again and because of this will be even better together. Or maybe we when we meet we will have found someone better. But all these if they are good, can only be done through God. And so until then I will be growing, listening to my elders and to others with experiences, and seeking God in order to become the man that I was created to be, to help others, and to have an active and wonderful relationship with God and others, and also to help others seek the same.